Hello everyone, this is GhostX5, most of you may know me as RYZE or Promethean, but you can call me whatever you want.
Music required to listen for this (Pls just ignore the Dokis and listen to it while reading this):
https://youtu.be/IgRUaVHq1HsAs I am making a farewell message, I have a confession to make. But before that, I’m going to talk about some things that I had been into since 2016 (When I joined PB2 as Promethean) until this year. It was a lot of fun, making a lot of friends with other players, joining in some approved matches including stryde-sniper, xnx-railwars, 707-sniper, etc. even playing the Forum Games and interacting with others in the community. What happened to this year, well, I know there was an update which had new weapons and skins, plus other things for the ALE, which was pretty neat. Some fan-made weapons created by the community (Congrats to mister mayhem, darkstar 1, DoomWrath, LazyRain, Terror Only), skins including Raven reconnaissance battle armor (Once again, it reminds me of Helioskrill, as always), new Robot (My 4th favorite), Civil Protector (5th). Making maps was also fun too. And my former map that I just updated was Pistol: Firefight (Changed most of the things, well, lostmydollar says it’s ugly, but I’m not holding anything against him btw). Until now, I still remember 2 users that I’ve fought against, they were the ones who are bashing things at me like I was impersonating Prothean (Well, of course I wasn’t since Prothean & Promethean are both different, I didn’t even know this at first, Prothean belongs to Mass Effect while Promethean belongs to Halo, mind you), stuff like that, some people doing some racism, etc. At least I just let go of what happened, since it won’t ever happen again..
Now, on to the confession part of mine. To be honest, being inactive for some things like studies, homework, projects, etc. in my personal life, and, I have to admit to you guys, I have a bad depression in my whole life since September 2017. It was a mess, full of studies, stress, plus, family problems. I got fed up with a lot of things, and I even thought of suicide (I seriously thought about it like literally), stabbing myself in the chest with a knife. But I stopped myself (It was God who did that), realizing that what I was doing was wrong. Well, if I hadn’t stopped myself, I would’ve been dead already and I never got to meet everyone else or even managed to get my Xbox, and some gifts too, and never have made this post. A lot of memories just flooded into me, making me remember that I am not alone, everyone in my family loves me and are willing to support me and help me. But first I need to help myself too. They’re not gonna be able to help me if I’m not gonna help myself. I can be mature, but sometimes I’m immature.
Now, what’s the good news for me? I just opened myself for everyone. I know this is not a place for blogging, but this is a message for everyone. I’m gonna be prioritizing myself for some things. Daily routine. Story of my life.
Bad news, I’m gonna be inactive tomorrow until May 25. This is because I have to attend summer class for math. Why? I failed math. (Yes, I really do fail) This is the 2nd time I’ve failed the same subject since 7th Grade (Currently I’m moving on to 9th Grade), because I don’t understand it, and I hate the same subject. As a result, if I hate the subject, there’s no way I’ll be able to learn it. I’m gonna have to embrace it and think of it like it’s a lesson that’s meant to be learned and solved. If I don’t embrace it and thought about solving the problems, I’m gonna be stuck in 8th Grade for the entire school year. Now, before I leave the game + community for the summer class for math, I want to thank you everyone who has been doing well in the community, those who became my friends, enemies, becoming part of me, those who I had interacted with, whom I talked with in PMs. Thank you, for changing me into who I am today.
Thank you: Max Sixth [Nova], CoolZ, Carar aka Elitech, RGX (RenegadeKillerGSX9), AngelineReagan, Himeko, Lisa Evo, Yuri_DDLC, bluewolf5721, Hikarikaze, Terror Only, LazyRain, darkstar 1, Martin the wolf, mister mayhem, DoomWrath, Kazy, Protonoid, Silent Aurora, 1nfern0, Heavenly Child, Mahadavais, Lucy Snow, saw-, mingo1, gsa12, Jeff the hacker aka mikey schmidt, MY SANITY, Yamil, Roulette-137, WolfMaster12, ustopable, Ayano, Irv, 911 cop slate, 007 Agent, Dariy (Dude I’m sorry for not sending you the gift yet), wreak, Incompetence, lostmydollar, Dandamage, thetoppestkek
Don’t worry about me being inactive all the time, because I’m only active, and limited on Friday by using the iPad, except during Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and weekends. But hey, I’ll always be here for everyone.
Also, remember that I wanted to be a soldier? Well, not anymore, since I’m not gonna risk it. I decided for that I’ll be a programmer for multimedia & games instead.
Always remember,
Keep Moving Forward.