Confession I'm very sorry

[Yex]

I do not have feelings that's the truth about myself, pixelbyte knows about it as I told him the truth about it.

I'm just a person who never feels feeling or anything and I only ended up experimenting with it only to find out it doesn't work out at all and only made things worse.

It only leaded to problems and even bigger problems until I ended up losing everything and things were falling apart my experiment ideas were just the worst and yet I just experiment with people's behavior and things until I found out among us just does that which I always used only to find out I'm just ending up messing with people and being a troll is that it ends up being due to me being feeling less never to feel feelings and instead feeling like an empty shell and I usually end up going too far with my experiments and I'm starting to think they really weren't experiments, clearly I do need some serious help with my mental issues and problems and I do not know what to do anymore I'm lost, perhaps this is what happens when I don't say the truth about myself and why I was doing this, only to ruin myself and others so this is all it will get into afterwards.

Now I'm just silenced for eternally.

Goodbye.

[Girl_Power]

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[broforce1]

If you are doing bad experiments like trying bad behavior that would cause worse problems, and like understood from the topic, if you are feelingless, means that you are having a ruff time, properly that's kinda good thing tho, never feeling about somethings would benefit you in some hard situations, and the only problem that cause your feelingless is your depression i guess, try to be positive, interest yourself with more things could help you to get back your feelings, try change your life routine or the path of your life, try to find something else, and i guess because you dont feel anything you will feel that all the experiments you done is just nothing and it makes things worse, if you really wanna help from some people you better to go back to your family or get support from your friends or your best friends or even a trusted person, life becomes ruff sometimes, but if you do not accept all of these things, you wont go ahead or move forward, we must always know all things we try would benefit us for the future, and we get more experienced, you wont expect everything to work, just be yourself, and you dont have to be silenced at all, and anything happens to you that is bad, so you better to put that behinds you and predict that thing belongs to the past that must being forgotten, dont be sad or dipressed confession and aplogizing would help your feelings to get better, and properly i dont think you are feelingless, properly you are having a ruff times which affects on your personality, and dont worry, properly you would pass all of this and i'm sure of that

[xElijah]

I barely understand what you mean. You said you don't have feelings. Can you elaborate on that? Are you cruel or do you not feel any feelings at all (both positive and negative ones)?

[nightmar]

I experiment on people as well, but I usually try to make sure their view of me does not change. I have been doing that for years and it works fine so far.

[verecund gazelle]

Lack of emotions isn't entirely bad; when you're playing Texas Hold 'Em or something, deception and stone-facedness can serve quite well. Deceiving to achieve your goal of extracting reactions from others, which helped you gauge how stone-facedness can hurt your image. Even if you didn't attempt the experiment, if you're stoic by nature, maybe the reactions are to you yourself.

Machiavellianism is a deceptive personality nature; one of the Dark Triad of Personality traits; perhaps you have it? If you do, it could serve quite well; you're make good use of deception, you're callous, and amoral. This could be a good thing for you, whether you desire a specified reaction, money, or throat or something, or have to do something unsavory. However, it could pose a threat to your image, especially if it is obvious you are deceptive, like what happened with you. If you can deal with this risk to image, then you have a useful personality trait. This can become irrationality, though.

Psychopathy and narcissism are the other two points of the Dark Triad of Personality. Psychopathy is disinhibition, egotism and boldness, among other things. You do seem bold, and egotistical (not ribbing you), and... the other things that are listed on the wikipedia page of it. Now that isn't inherently a bad thing, in today's world; boldness is rewarded, and... idk. Psychopathy can devolve into irrationality. Narcissism is self explanatory. I can't really tell if you have it, but I think you might have a sliver of it. Done right, narcisssism could prove a decent motivator for many aspirations; you want to make yourself the best it can be. However, most people can't control their narcissism, and eventually are overpowered by it into irrationality.

It seems dissociation plays a part in this experiment. Do you perhaps regularly dissociate in emotionally charged situations or in commonplace situations? If so, it could be a considerable issue; possibly a lack of self-responsibility and self-accountability, or something like a complex or some psychoanalysis crap. However, it could prove useful; when you need to not feel anything, like in Blackjack or a YLYL challenge, it would be wise to capitalize on this personality trait.

Depression could also play a part in this lack of feeling you experience. You do seem sad; if chronic and pervasive, it could be that you have it. The "dead inside" mantra is quite true to life, as an obsession with your perceived hopelessness blocks out other happiness vectors. Escapism is a common cope, understandably; something you do, mayhap? Perhaps it is a cyclical thing, as it is for me. I know not your depressive status, but there is a chance that the escapism associated with depression manifested as emotional deadening or emotional experimentation; a sort of diversion. Maybe the people took it harder than you expected in the depressed haze of thought.

If you want to fix your personality, then the best course of action to fix your valuable personality traits would be going to a psychoanalyst or some other psycho. Maybe a neuro-branched specialist would be able to help remake your personality. Meditation in a silent place could keep your mind trapped and forced to think about how to forge itself into a more pleasurable personality. I suppose I should stop spouting novice, inane psychoanalysis about someone whose personality I hardly know a grain of.

Also, in regards to human experimentation, like you did, if they don't know they're being experimented on, then it ain't illegal :GWchadthink:. Just kidding. If it furthers human civilization towards the third or fourth Kardashev index, then it is surely nothing but a benefit to our species.

Also Also, I think it would be wise and in your future interest to disseminate the data, that you have reaped from the experimentation, to the scientific community, so that others might analyze the processes and data, and hopefully replicate the experiment, and hopefully attain a similar result. Through the endless replication of this experiment, perhaps you will be crowned the author of a scientific theory of psychology/psychoanalysis:

Yex, author of the Yex Law of Psychology, which states that:

Emotional stoicism and a combination of dark triad traits, in varying amounts, leads to a negative-effect positive-feedback social system. Three prerequisites must first be satisfied as follows:

1. The independent control must be a plazma burst 2 player
2. The independent control must post results to the plazma burst 2 forums
3. The variable control must have significant contact with the independent control

PS: hey phsc, make a quality phsc-post.

[Yex]

Lack of emotions isn't entirely bad; when you're playing Texas Hold 'Em or something, deception and stone-facedness can serve quite well. Deceiving to achieve your goal of extracting reactions from others, which helped you gauge how stone-facedness can hurt your image. Even if you didn't attempt the experiment, if you're stoic by nature, maybe the reactions are to you yourself.

Machiavellianism is a deceptive personality nature; one of the Dark Triad of Personality traits; perhaps you have it? If you do, it could serve quite well; you're make good use of deception, you're callous, and amoral. This could be a good thing for you, whether you desire a specified reaction, money, or throat or something, or have to do something unsavory. However, it could pose a threat to your image, especially if it is obvious you are deceptive, like what happened with you. If you can deal with this risk to image, then you have a useful personality trait. This can become irrationality, though.

Psychopathy and narcissism are the other two points of the Dark Triad of Personality. Psychopathy is disinhibition, egotism and boldness, among other things. You do seem bold, and egotistical (not ribbing you), and... the other things that are listed on the wikipedia page of it. Now that isn't inherently a bad thing, in today's world; boldness is rewarded, and... idk. Psychopathy can devolve into irrationality. Narcissism is self explanatory. I can't really tell if you have it, but I think you might have a sliver of it. Done right, narcisssism could prove a decent motivator for many aspirations; you want to make yourself the best it can be. However, most people can't control their narcissism, and eventually are overpowered by it into irrationality.

It seems dissociation plays a part in this experiment. Do you perhaps regularly dissociate in emotionally charged situations or in commonplace situations? If so, it could be a considerable issue; possibly a lack of self-responsibility and self-accountability, or something like a complex or some psychoanalysis crap. However, it could prove useful; when you need to not feel anything, like in Blackjack or a YLYL challenge, it would be wise to capitalize on this personality trait.

Depression could also play a part in this lack of feeling you experience. You do seem sad; if chronic and pervasive, it could be that you have it. The "dead inside" mantra is quite true to life, as an obsession with your perceived hopelessness blocks out other happiness vectors. Escapism is a common cope, understandably; something you do, mayhap? Perhaps it is a cyclical thing, as it is for me. I know not your depressive status, but there is a chance that the escapism associated with depression manifested as emotional deadening or emotional experimentation; a sort of diversion. Maybe the people took it harder than you expected in the depressed haze of thought.

If you want to fix your personality, then the best course of action to fix your valuable personality traits would be going to a psychoanalyst or some other psycho. Maybe a neuro-branched specialist would be able to help remake your personality. Meditation in a silent place could keep your mind trapped and forced to think about how to forge itself into a more pleasurable personality. I suppose I should stop spouting novice, inane psychoanalysis about someone whose personality I hardly know a grain of.

Also, in regards to human experimentation, like you did, if they don't know they're being experimented on, then it ain't illegal :GWchadthink:. Just kidding. If it furthers human civilization towards the third or fourth Kardashev index, then it is surely nothing but a benefit to our species.

Also Also, I think it would be wise and in your future interest to disseminate the data, that you have reaped from the experimentation, to the scientific community, so that others might analyze the processes and data, and hopefully replicate the experiment, and hopefully attain a similar result. Through the endless replication of this experiment, perhaps you will be crowned the author of a scientific theory of psychology/psychoanalysis:

Yex, author of the Yex Law of Psychology, which states that:

Emotional stoicism and a combination of dark triad traits, in varying amounts, leads to a negative-effect positive-feedback social system. Three prerequisites must first be satisfied as follows:

1. The independent control must be a plazma burst 2 player
2. The independent control must post results to the plazma burst 2 forums
3. The variable control must have significant contact with the independent control

PS: hey phsc, make a quality phsc-post.

Yes.

Still though, doesn't look like I belong here anyway or others and just like I said, I'm forever silenced and it doesn't look like I should be here or simply exists.

[yizhe]

hey hey hey, you belong here! please don't leave us

This is the internet after all, all the bad moments that occur here just comes and go, do not take any negative events that occur on the net to heart. I do not deem you as someone thats bad or evil.

You have some great meta-cognition there! well everyone is learning and discovering something new at some points of their lives. I completely understand why you felt disheartened, its normal. It hits harder knowing that you unintentionally messed up friendship/relationship with others. Take this as a learning experience, it is ok to learn from the mistakes. There are still many years ahead of you. impressions do change, not always but common. Those around you will watch you grow, and they will be more receptive of you in the times to come.

encouraging words: It is great that you self reflected! Not everyone is have that level of self awareness to be able to do that all the time. This community will support you all the way, no worries about that!

smile: because you have made a step forward

Meep

[Yex]

Here's another confession.

I was Chir and YensLe because I felt like I needed to get away from things and start something new but clearly it wouldn't work and instead I'm wasting my own time and just gotten into more useless and worthless things now, clearly I can't deal with this or anything anymore.

Prove:

Prove:

I just couldn't take it anymore I just can't I simply can not take it no more.

I'm tired of it and everything else.

I'm very sorry.

I don't think it's best for me to stay as the more I do the worse it gets, I've seriously lost it, I just can not live it or deal with this.

[Build]

I hope you did read the posts above, Because it is no point at all to help you if you kept making the same posts about feeling bad about yourself



Feel better for yourself while it lasts (Because if you don't, I don't see why you have to make this as we are trying to help you already)

I kindly suggest to join pb2 discord and interact with us, I'd say the community's not good. But you'd see map makers and artists that make pb2 fan arts such as Silk1, LazyRain, CakeSpider, thetoppestkek, etc...

[ECC9]

dont join pb2 discord

[mokaal]

Yeah man, don't join Discord, it's worse than clans discord chats heheheheheheh

Seriously, if you have some issues or something like that, why not talking to people about it and come to a solution?

[broforce1]

dont join pb2 discord

PB2 discord community is full of cancer and horrifying cursed shit posts, but in the other sides, there are nice and creative posts, so it's up to you anyway to handle some mature things or join or never joining, also build was right about what he said already, there are nice and kind people who do cool stuff right there.

[Silk1]

Every discord server is not perfect but we have some cool people in the community that you can hang out like Build says. It just depends on the situation, but there's always the time where you can make a normal conversation. #maps #creative is the best content you can look up in the server.

[nightmar]

Here's another confession.

I was Chir and YensLe because I felt like I needed to get away from things and start something new but clearly it wouldn't work and instead I'm wasting my own time and just gotten into more useless and worthless things now, clearly I can't deal with this or anything anymore.

Prove:

Prove:

I just couldn't take it anymore I just can't I simply can not take it no more.

I'm tired of it and everything else.

I'm very sorry.

I don't think it's best for me to stay as the more I do the worse it gets, I've seriously lost it, I just can not live it or deal with this.

I don't see why you would be sorry for having alts? And for whatever reason why apologise to us?